By Saba Ahmad. 11 Feb 2024
My heart feels heavy, I feel a sort of constriction in my heart, as today, this earth has completed a full cycle of 365 days around the sun, a year since my dearest Abbu left this earth to meet his creator, leaving behind memories that are etched deep within my soul. The pain of his absence is still sharp, some days more than others, but it’s slowly being softened by the beautiful memories we shared and the countless lives he touched.
Today, I find myself navigating through a myriad of emotions as I reflect on his life, his love, his kindness, his generosity, and his zest for life that continue to ripple through the lives of those who had the privilege of knowing him. From people of his generation to grandkids and great grandkids he was loved and adored by one and all. Whether in the role of a devoted family man or the center of social gatherings transitioning seamlessly to a perpetual learner or to a scholar, his personality showcased a multitude of dimensions.
My father was my guiding light, my source of strength, my greatest role model, my hero – who was always smiling and who never spoke ill of anyone, who always believed in the goodness of others. His presence in my life was a constant reminder of unconditional love, and boundless wisdom. He taught me the importance of integrity, compassion, resilience and to reach for the stars shaping me into the person I am today.
In his chosen profession, as a professor, his wisdom shaped not only minds but hearts. His absence is a void that cannot be filled, but his teachings continue to resonate with so many whom he taught. As a teacher, he wasn’t just someone who imparted knowledge; he was an inspiration. He lit a spark in his students, nurtured their curiosity, and helped them discover their true potential. In this past year we have heard so many stories from his former students about how he made a difference in their lives, from the lessons he taught to the simple acts of kindness and encouragement.
With his passing I am reminded of the fragility of life and the importance of cherishing every moment we have with our loved ones. His passing has taught me to embrace each day with gratitude, to cherish the bonds of family every single day, and to live life with purpose and passion.
As I sit writing with my eyes wet, Abbu, I miss your voice, your smile, your laughter, and your warm presence and though you’re gone physically, your spirit lives on with the love you gave, in the lessons you taught and the values you instilled. I vow to honor your memory by living a life filled with love, kindness, and compassion. I will in-sha-Allah carry your legacy forward, striving to make you proud with every step I take. And though the pain of your absence may never fully fade,I find comfort in knowing that your love will always surround me, like a gentle embrace that soothes the ache in my heart. I take comfort in knowing that your love will always be my guiding light. I find peace in the knowledge that you are in a better place and in-sha-Allah we will reunite again in Jannah .
In loving memory of my dearest Abbu, loving husband, doting father, beloved father-in-law, brother and brother in law, admired uncle and adored grandfather.
May Allah raise his levels in Jannah and grant him Jannat ul Firdaus and grant him maghfirah, Ameen. May Allah give us strength and make me and Faisal and all Abbu’s grand kids a sadaqa-e-jaria. Ameen. Please make dua for his maghfirah.